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Agnes, my Chihuahua

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On July 11, 2020 my Applehead Chihuahua dog passed away. Her name was Agnes. She was nine years old. I found her dead about 10:00 PM. I was about to go to bed but immediately knew there was no need to go to bed. When I found her dead in the kitchen, I knew that I wouldn't be able to get any sleep so I stayed up most of the night.

I adopted Agnes on August 27, 2013. My ex-friend and I were out looking for me a Chihuahua dog. As she put gas in her Durango, I made a decision. I decided that if the dog I found was a female, I would name it after my late mother. My ex-friend and I went to a woman's house who runs her own rescue service. She only had one Chihuahua and it was a female.

I eventually bought two more Chihuahua dogs. Both dogs are hyper so I keep them in my basement. It wasn't until I bought those dogs that I learned what a great dog Agnes was. Agnes was one of the sweetest dogs around and wasn't one bit hyper. After getting my two new dogs, I learned how special Agnes was. Agnes was a bit on the hateful side when I adopted her but she soon grew out of it. When I took Agnes to a vet in 2017, I learned that she had a heart murmur.

Because of a mental disorder, I hear voices from time to time. As an ice cream truck drove through the subdivision where I live, I heard a voice. The voice told me to buy an ice cream and eat it while standing over Agnes's grave. I did so but it tore me up pretty bad. Yes I hear voices sometimes but don't worry. The voices don't tell me to hurt people. I have a mental disorder but I'm not a psycho.

When I adopted Agnes, I got the Holy Grail of dogs. As far as I'm concerned, she was the best dog on the planet. She loved me and the feeling was mutual. Some friends invited me to stay overnight at their homes a few times. When I would come home after being gone all night, Agnes would start hopping around and yelping because she was happy to see me.

I usually sleep on my couch and she slept on the couch with me. I decided to sleep in one of the bedrooms. Agnes was in the living room and she started howling at 3:00 AM. She was unhappy because she couldn't spend the night with her Daddy. After her howling woke me up, I got her and let her sleep in the bed with me the rest of the night.

I have no wife or kids and Agnes was the closest thing I had to a daughter. Her death has broken my heart and I'm going to miss her. She was my baby doll and I owned her for almost seven glorious years. I thanked the good Lord for letting me have her. I was a lucky man.

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So sorry for your loss and pain.....dwell on the good memories she brought you, and you her, and focus on the time you had with each other.

Forget all the pain as it's just weakness leaving our souls

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Perfect name for such a beautiful family member. Hopefully you will find another little lady.
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My condolences on your lost. Its never easy. Ive lost good friends like this before And I believe that we will meat again. All dogs go to heaven.
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I'm sorry to hear about your best friend. I've had lots of dogs, but certain ones have just been more special. They sure leave an empty place when they're gone. Hopefully when it's time you'll find another really special one.

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I understand. I had Barney, my chihuahua for thirteen years. He came from a puppy mill at seven years of age. To say losing him crushed me would be an understatement. It took me a long time, but now i have three small mixed breeds to fill that huge void. I know it sounds impossible right now, but you will be able to move on in time. It doesn't mean you forget or love Agnes any less. The pain will lessen and it will mellow. You will be able to focus on all the wonderful memories you have with Agnes instead of focusing on losing her.
It takes time. Hang in there. You have two other little friends that need your attention and affection. They will calm down in time, especially if you work with them and love them for their good points. Their hyper behavior may be separation anxiety. Barney seemed very hyper and nervous to other people, but it really was separation anxiety. He wanted to be with me all the time and it took a while for him to calm down when i got home from work, because he had such anxiety that i was going to leave again. Once i understood that, i was able to work with that, like making stops on my way home so when i got home, i wasn't running out the door again.
Agnes will always be in your heart. That love never becomes less, but the pain will. You will be rejoined with her again some day. Take comfort in that.
Peace my Brother
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So sorry to hear of her passing. Been there way too many times myself. Hang tough.
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